The letter Fred

I tried so hard not to care

Do what you want, I won’t judge

I’ll just be there

You made me like this

It isn't fair

It’s good you’re gone

I’d rather be alone

I'm on a mission for life

You couldn't give a shit

My heart is hidden, protected and safe

You broke me too many times now

I've had enough

I want to scream and shout

All I do is call your bluff

You did this

It’s all your fault

What do you want?

Time to grow up

I'm not going to wait

Pretty soon it’s going to be too late

-JA

Absence makes the heart grow fonder…?

Deadlines, tears and inner fears 

Overcoming starvation, discoveries and revelations

I’m back and well, so indulge me, or go to hell

 -JA

I’ve been busy over the last few months and my heart hasn’t been into writing a new post. Sorry to my followers, I will make a better effort from now on.

Living gluten and fructose free mostly sucks, but I’m dealing with it for now. I feel better and digestive distress is at a minimum – at long last.

Over the weekend I indulged in some homemade buckwheat pancakes. They were delicious and totally boyfriend approved – little did he know just how healthy they were…

What you’ll need…

Pancakes (GF, wheat free, soy free, no added sugar) -cook over a medium heat until all bubbles pop and edges are cooked through. Flip over and cook until golden

Mix together until smooth:

Orgran buckwheat pancake mix

3 eggs

90ml skim milk

240ml Cold water

3 tsp Sugarless artificial sweetener

Berry sauce -Cook in microwave at 50% power level for 6-8mins. Stir after 4mins and serve over pancakes whilst still hot.

1-1½ cups frozen blueberries
2 tsp vanilla essence
1 tsp Sugarless artificial sweetener

TamarValley Greek Yoghurt (GF & Gelatin free, No added sugar)

Any flavor to serve over berry sauce

ENJOY

-JA

Week 1 – Discovery and starvation

Discovery and starvation

Most people have ‘food intolerances’ to some degree, but our bodies adapt and cope over time. Sometimes however, we don’t adapt and we develop sensitivities to certain food groups. In my case, wheat and fructose appear to be causing me some health concerns...Bloating, queasiness and dizziness, lack of energy, excessive night sweating, weight gain, and headaches. Yuck!

The culprits...

Wheat is one of the world’s top 8 food allergens, alongside peanuts, tree nuts, milk, fish, shellfish, eggs and soy. Wheat is a wholesome, nutritious food and makes up a lot of my daily diet; bread, wraps, cereals, pasta, muffins, cakes, biscuits, beer and even ice cream! Going without these foods is going to be difficult, but even more than wheat; I’m going to miss my long time friend fructose...

Fructose intolerance is seen in approximately 30% of the Western world and Africa. It’s a condition where your body finds it challenging to digest fructose and fructose containing foods. There is only one treatment...completely removing fructose and sucrose from the diet. For me, this means no apples, watermelon or onion among other delicious things.

The diet in brief for the next 4 weeks...

What you'll need...

Cantaloupe,  Spinach, Lettuce, Tomato, Mushroom, Strawberries, Berries, Carrot, Sweet potato, Zucchini, Ginger, Broccoli, Capsicum, Avocado, Asparagus, Bok/pak choy, Bean shoots, Chicken fillets, Turkey, White fish, Low fat feta, Low fat Jalna, Low fat ricotta, Greek Yoghurt, Quinoa flaked, Almonds, Brazil nuts, Linseeds, Sunflower seeds, Pepitas, Cashews, Cous cous, Chickpeas, Crushed tomatoes, Cumin, Ginger, Turmeric, Low salt Chicken stock, Red lentils, Tuna Spring water, Rice Thins, Eggs

One week on and how do I feel?

So far, I've been starving 80% of the time. Adjusting to the new serving sizes is going to be a challenge. Most of the meals and 1-1.5 cups of food. I’ve had a few specific cravings; Coke zero, apples and ice cream. I’ve resisted all my hunger pangs and stuck to my strict 3 meals, two snacks (mostly – does a few strawberries at 1am count?). I’ve lost 2kgs, which can only be a good thing and I’m far less tired and bloated. Fingers cross for the next 3 weeks.

-JA

Wheat Free & Fructose Free

Wheat Free & Fructose Free

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nd so begins my next obsessive adventure... I love learning about foods... what’s in them and where they come from (before the supermarket shelf of cause!). To put it plainly, I believe we ARE what we EAT.

“Food not only relates to our mood and general wellbeing, it can affect our physiological appearance, both inside and out!”

-JA

Over the next 4 weeks, I’m following a fructose and wheat free eating plan, as prescribed by my Nutritionist. It’s a daunting feeling to get started. So, of cause, I had to have my ‘Last supper’... Creamy chicken fettuccini & a big bowl of Streets cookies & cream ice cream. Good bye fructose, wheat & my sore tummy (hopefully). Follow my progress and learn a little with me along the way.   



Nom nom nom... pass the parmesan



-JA

Fat burns in the fire of carbohydrates

In this post I’m brining you some important information… Specifically, I hope to address a common misconception about low carbohydrate diets designed for weight loss. Hint… removing carbohydrates from your diet isn’t the answer to your weighty worries. Read on to find out why…

-JA

‘Fat burns in the fire of carbohydrates’

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n 2004, the World Health Organization developed a global strategy on diet, physical activity and health. This strategy was adopted in order to reduce the risk factors responsible the major non-communicable diseases, including diabetes and cardiovascular disease due to obesity (1). The main outcomes of this strategy were the promotion of a healthy diet and the recommendation to reduce the overall consumption of some carbohydrates like sugars and rapidly digested starches (2). Since the implementation of this strategy, a number of research bodies have studied the effects of a low carbohydrate diet on weight loss and more specifically, the metabolic changes that take place when the macronutrient composition of the diet is altered (3).  In order to understand these findings and the overall effects on low carbohydrate diets designed for weight loss, the rules of macronutrient metabolism must be understood… especially carbohydrates.

Metabolism is an all-encompassing term that refers to the chemical reactions within cells. The body’s cells metabolize by degrading, synthesizing and transforming the three forms of energy: carbohydrates, fats and proteins. Nutrients absorbed by this process are used by the body to promote normal growth, maintenance and repair. Carbohydrates are the body’s preferred energy-yielding nutrient for producing cellular energy in the form of adenosine tri-phosphate (4). Dietary carbohydrates are digested to form the absorbable unit glucose, which plays a central role in carbohydrate metabolism. In order to maintain the energy needs of the body, dietary carbohydrates must be consumed at frequent intervals. During periods of carbohydrate depletion, the body can maintain homeostasis by releasing the stored form of glucose known as glycogen from muscles and the liver. However, these glycogen stores are limited and once depleted; fats become the fuel for energy. Metabolizing fat for the body’s energy is not a direct substitute for carbohydrate breakdown and in fact, a number of metabolic changes occur. Normally, fat oxidation for energy requires the presence of glucose and the 2 energy fuels are broken down together. This process provides the formation of a fat-glucose complex whereby the combined molecules break down completely. This process of fat metabolism provides the basis for the analogy; fats burn in the fire of carbohydrates. Therefore, fat metabolism for energy, in the absence of glucose becomes complicated. Without glucose to form the fat-glucose complex for breakdown, fat units bind together to form ketone bodies. The continued physiological processes that lead to the formation of ketone bodies can cause a condition known as ketosis, whereby the accumulation of ketone bodies in the blood causes a disruption to the body’s normal acid-base balance (5). Prolonged ketosis can eventually lead to ketoacidosis and an impaired ability of the liver to perform gluconeogenesis. Ketosis is one of the common metabolic changes thought to occur when a low carbohydrate diet is followed (6).

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arbohydrates are an important macronutrient for energy production and although the absorbable units produced by fat digestion, Fatty acids and Monoglycerides, can be utilized by the some of body’s cells, there are some processes that can only be carried out using glucose. Brain cells, nerve cells and developing red blood cells can only continue to proliferate in the presence of glucose as a fuel source. During periods of glucose and glycogen depletion (low-carbohydrate diets) the body begins to source glucose by dismantling body proteins. This complicated process is called gluconeogenesis and becomes the continued source of glucose for the body until adequate dietary carbohydrates are returned (6). Continued dismantling of body proteins to produce glucose for energy is not ideal and can impact on the physiological role the absorbable units of proteins, amino acids, provide the body (7). Given the complicated processes of macronutrient metabolism and the differing roles of carbohydrates, fats and proteins, it is clear that altering the nutrient composition of ones diet will have a significant physiological impact on the body.

According to review articles by Westman et al. (2007) and Last & Wilson (2006), low carbohydrate diets restrict caloric intake by reducing the consumption of carbohydrates to 20 to 60 g per day. This in effect, lowers glucose availability and changes insulin and glycogen concentrations, directing the body away from fat storage and toward the metabolic oxidation of fat. Key to defining a diet as low carbohydrate is the presence of measurable ketones in the urine. These diets have been referred to as very-low-carbohydrate ketogenic diet (VLCKD) or a low-carbohydrate-ketogenic diet (LCKD). It is these diets that have a potent effect on metabolic pathways and challenge the traditional school of thought that fat burns in the fuel of carbohydrates.

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urrent research compiled by Archeson (2010), now shows that manipulating fuel sources in energy production for the purposes of weight loss can be done without the presence of carbohydrates and that in the short term, VLCKD or LCKD acutely induce a number of favorable effects for the dieter, including, rapid weight loss, reduction of circulating triglyceride levels and improved blood pressure. A down side to VLCKD or LCKD’s for weight loss is the number of less desirable physiological effects including, loss of lean body mass, increased loss of calcium through urine and increased levels of plasma homocysteine and low-density lipoprotein-cholesterol, potentially increasing the risk of a cardiovascular event. In addition to this, Last & Wilson (2006) review the difference in weight loss between low carbohydrate and low-fat-higher-carbohydrate diets. They conclude that in the short term, i.e. up to 6 months, greater weight loss occurred with the low carbohydrate diets. Over a 1-year period, however, weight loss did not significantly differ between low carbohydrate and the low-fat-higher-carbohydrate diets. The implications of the above findings, question the long-term impacts of diets, which focus on or restrict any one particular macronutrient group.

For rapid weight loss results, it appears that choosing a diet low in carbohydrates will have an effect. This is likely due to the loss of fluids often associated with stored glycogen and the loss of lean body mass as proteins are broken down for glucose-fuel. In conclusion, it is true that ‘Fats burn in the fuel of carbohydrates’ in the traditional sense of macronutrient metabolism. In the absence of carbohydrates, like we see in low carbohydrate diets, fats are oxidized as a fuel source for the body, but the breakdown is not complete. Ketosis can result from this type of diet and the physiological changes this can have on the body are undesirable, especially loss in liver function. Instead of choosing a diet that may have yet unknown long term effects on the body it may be best to follow the Australian Guide to Healthy Eating and ‘consume a variety of foods across and within the five food groups and avoid foods that contain too much added fat, salt and sugar’ (8).

-JA

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

-Kate Moss

 

...This dress makes me look fat...



At what point in your life have you drawn a line? It could have been about anything; toxic friendships, a negative attitude, a caffeine addiction, a lack of exercise or even, not being thin enough! You would not be surprised that the latter is something running through the minds of almost all women, on a daily, if not hourly basis. It’s an interesting thought…What stops us from committing to the lines we draw? So easily we forget to listen to ourselves and the cycle continues.

I continually ‘self talk’, often it’s a jumble of body image insecurities, self guilt and desires of who I want to be and what I want for my life.

I want to learn to listen to my inner voice and be accountable to the things I want. Ask yourself this…Who are you now, right now, as you read this? Is this the person inside or are you just playing the game like everybody else?

I want to look back at this blog and remember that I want to be the person inside my head. I’m sick of doing the right things; I want to do my things.

-JA

Eddi

Eddi

She’s ‘one of the boys’, she’s ‘just a friend’ and she’s ‘into your boyfriend’

Her name is Eddi and she is a bitch. Eddi is younger than me, but not by more than a few years. She came to the big smoke of Melbourne from boarding school to study sports science at university.  Early on in the semester, Eddi landed her ideal job with the local Football team, to run water and assist ‘the boys’ in getting up and ready for training and game day. This is when I first met Eddi. We were introduced to each other by my boyfriend Nate. At first, I was drawn to the girl, having had a similar ascension to the city myself; I knew what it was like to be the ‘new girl’. A few girlfriends of other players weren’t so welcoming and I actually found myself sticking up for her…but that was the beginning…this is the middle, and now, I’m searching for THE END.

Not long after Eddi and I met, a group of friends, Nate, Eddi and me found ourselves hanging out together at the Goodvibes music festival. We all ended up getting along perfectly and Eddi really gelled with us. I wasn’t concerned at how easily she had assimilated herself into our group. I was happy for her. The events that unfolded over the next 12 months were truly life altering. The pain and anguish Eddi has caused my life should be a warning to others and I’m unsure if I will ever be rid of the emotional scars left inside my mind and heart.

A path of deception ends in destruction or reflection…

Eddi had no shame in bombarding Nate with facebook ‘likes’, inbox messages, late night texts, invitations to coffee, IKEA and the movies. My non-suspecting boyfriend obliged the requests; he happily sipped coffee and helped her shop at IKEA for bits and pieces for her new place…How FUN. Nate had no idea what these actions were doing to my ego and self-esteem. He didn’t understand that IKEA is a place for couples, not new friends. I tried to be the relaxed, easygoing girlfriend, but my heart knew… knows her motives.  I put my foot down about their friendship after the IKEA adventure, but that didn’t stop Nate having lunch with her on his birthday, whilst I was at work…He didn’t even tell me about it…I only found out by accident. All these things together culminated into an invite to the movies on a Friday night...wtf? Nate got stuck in her web and I was the one who suffered the most. To him they are still friends and she knows nothing of my reactions which he says have cost him a good ‘mate’ to hang with.

Eddi has caused many arguments between Nate and me and I’m writing this blog to finally get rid of her in my mind. This is a VENT and a big FUCK OFF to the Eddi’s of the world and a heads up to the boys she tries to groom…WAKE UP, Eddi is evil even if you can’t see it.

Ps Eddi, I didn’t really sell that extra Matt Corby ticket… I just HATE you that much, that I said I did.

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 Is coffee just coffee...?

-JA

Prologue

A turning point indeed,

 Sanity or profanity you might read,

Live in the future and not in the past

 Anger, sadness and love I will blast.

                                                  -JA